Friday, August 29, 2003

Exam Fever

Am so frightened!! All the topics seem very new ..........and there is no time to learn them from scratch either!!! The only thing that keeps me going is " Everything is difficult before it becomes easy."

So long guys....the next update will be on Sep 5

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

The exams are around the corner

How did I realise this just now? Well ......because the hysteria and panic has already set the form of emotional outbursts from one high strung lady in my class....I just wish my brain realises this fast enough!

It just seems like yesterday that I joined MBA and my first term is coming to an end already! So many anxieties, so many wishes, so many dreams, so many apprehensions.....the list will go on. When I made the decision to pursue higher studies, especially a masters in business administration in human resources, I didn't have many supporters.... no one believed MBA, that too in HR would help me much! Neither did I....It was just a means of getting back to college life ....But it has been one beautiful journey in the last few months......I loved it.

Have made connections with some wonderful people.... going to miss them really when my next term starts with a new set of classmates!!

PS:By the way I replaced my previous post with 'error publishing' because it indeed was! I was made to understand it was too private when one of the close friends of the topic under discussion blurted it out before the flame of my light!! Sorry Master......Cant let you see it.........
Having a crush!

"You have lost one or two screws!" was a comment given by one of my of classmates to me today!

And it is true ... atleast at times- all this because I have started the 'fall in love, get out' process all over again in my life! OK.. not love but my new crush has entered my life and let me tell you its utterly magnificently horrible. My hormones are going havoc and I have no way to control it.

I feel euphoric one moment and ridiculously miserable the next! I see him, talk to him- the sky is brighter, the world is wonderful, I am happy, My life is full...... and I dont see him? Well......everything becomes dulll.....boring... and what not?!!!

Oh my god, Why is this happening to me? Is there no immunity against this? I am so afraid that I will do something really stupid like .....settle down!

God Please Save Me!

PS: There is a great chance that the subject of this topic will get to see this post and I dont even care! Am I pathetic or what?

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Quantitative methods

Today, I was exclusively selected for receiving 'motivational advice' in my Quantitative methods class! The first question of the day was also asked to me and subsequently the professor decided that I needed extra coaching and off it went.........questions and more unanswerable questions- I looked like a complete fool sitting there wearing an expression of mixed embarrasment (obviously beacuse everyone knew the answer to those questions except me!) and earnestness!(obviuosly because I wanted to pretend that I knew them too only that I cant remember it right at that moment!) When one of classmates tried to rescue me by answering the question herself, she was told in no strict terms to keep quite and that the question was addressed to me for a specific reason- in the prof's words "I need her to start thinking analytically........"!! Hehehehe as if he can do that!!!!

There is a reason why I am not excellent in Maths and that is not because I am not intelligent.......I just had this startling cataclysmic thought this morning- the reason I am not able to digest this so called beautiful subject is because I simply can not understand what I am not able to visualize! And I absolutely wont agree with anyone who says otherwise...........

Friday, August 22, 2003

Thursday, August 21, 2003

A chance

Today is going to be one of those best days I think! Right in the morning, one of my most boring classes got cancelled and on top of that what do I find when I open my mail box? Well... needless to say it must have been something that made me extremely happy!

As a future HR manager, I know that it is very important for employees to feel apprecaited and recieve praise from their managers often. I have also experienced this when I was a working as a Web Researcher with String Information Services. The term "Job Satisfaction" gets a whole new meaning when you really like the people you work with and look up to them. Fortunately, String was one such place where I could get all these and more- I did so many things that I had thought I could never do in my life -taking responsibility, finishing something much ahead of time, finding something difficult to find........the list could go on.

However much you read about those great entrepreneurs or about talented driven individuals, the impact would be far more when you get an opportunity to interact with these people face to face. Consciously or unconsciously, some of their attitude will rub off on you and you find you are a much better and informed person at the end of it. Well, I got this chance and would be forvever thankful to those that made this possible.

Monday, August 18, 2003

My guy, where are you?

Why am I always looking for "my guy" in all the guys I meet??? Has my biological clock started ticking desperately already? Hmm bad state of affairs indeed (pardon the pun!)

Saturday, August 16, 2003

Nandi hills

Am off to Nandi Hills for a weekend getaway tomorrow! It is a 1,478 m high hill, named after the bull of Lord Shiva and is also called Nandigiri or Nandidurga. The hill is the originating point for many rivers in Karnataka and was Tipu Sultan's favorite summer retreat. The forest surrounding the hills is supposed to abound with wildlife- let me see if I can spot any :)

The King Cobra

The King Cobra, the largest venomous snake in world, earned its name or rather title because of its sheer deadliness and ability to rear up and look a human straight in his eye. This creature, around which many myths and beliefs revolve, can live upto 20 years and keeps growing in size every year! It is most famous for its false eyespots on the hood which it uses when threatened or on an attack. Contrary to belief, snakes can not hear sound, that is they are deaf and can only feel vibrations.

One of the most fascinating habit of the King Cobra is its preference for other snakes as prey more than any other animal and King Cobras are the only snakes to build nests for laying eggs!

Do check out this amazing interactive site put up by National Geographic for more information on the King of Snakes.

Kind Cobra?

I have got a strong fascination to learn more and more about the King Cobra suddenly. Let me enlighten you guys ............

Thursday, August 14, 2003

Party time!

I am all ready for the party...... hey guys here I come.......

Snake, snake

From the time I moved into the IIM campus, my chithi has been enlightening me with stories about what hapenned in the campus in the past to what is expected to happen every month. One of the most interesting anecdotes she tells me is about spotting snakes! So yours truly, who happens to be a true adventure seeking soul at heart, always wanted to sight one for herself and voila! got the great opportunity at 8:30 PM yesterday.

My uncle had just stepped out of the house for a walk and the next moment we hear him calling us to come out and have a look at something really wonderful!!! (for those of you who haven't had the oppo to visit the IIM-B campus- the area is full of thick vegetation ok not thick but covered with trees for sure atleast!!!) What do we see? A big King Cobra in all its splendour!!! Wow was I excited or what? Hearing all the commotion, the good snake that it was, it quickly slithered away and hid in the water pipe refusing to give an appearance to all the late entrants!! But we knew and that was enough!! The security guards were called and the people from the house on top (where the water pipe leads!!!) were also warned. By the time, the snake decided to show itself, around 10 people had gathered, waiting with bated breath to spot it!!!

Some wanted to kill it (there are 15 young kids on the block and none of them are used to palying indoors!) and some just plain wanted to get rid of it !! And there I was, watching and praying for the snake to disappear unharmed!! My unlce was also a strong supporter and didnt want the cobra killed!!! Finally we managed to get hold of a snake catcher who looked like he had jumped staright from an Ali Baba movie!!! After watching his struggle to catch the slippery cobra, we called the forest department official and an animal rescue activist. It had gone 11 at night by then!!! We had three solid hours of entertainment!!!! And to the relief of us all, the animal activist managed to catch it and off it went to a forest!!!!!!

It was wonderful watching the antics of the beautiful King Cobra. If only I had little less desires and lots more guts- I would have caught it myslef ;)

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

Moving to Bangalore

Shifting to Bangalore was one of the best things that could have happened to me- it opened my eyes to so many new people and places - not necessarily in Bangalore but ironically in the town I left behind! Chennai seemed like such a different city when I went back after a month and the people seemed to have changed too!! When I got the first letter from home (written in my fathers scribbly handwriting!) I felt so melancholic and so sad but ecstatically happy too at the same time. This was the first time I received a written proof of my parents love and it is wonderful to know there are two people in this world who would do anything for you.

When my friend Lakshmi used to talk about her responsibility to her parents, her duties as a first kid I could never understand. Ya, making your parents happy is important but should it come above your own personal choices and happiness? - was not at all sure about it then but so so sure now. As the much pampered, second and last daughter in my family, growing up was one smooth sailing! No strict rules or discipline- no decision taken out of my hand unlike my poor elder sis! I was more of a pet that needed loving than a daughter who needed guidance. I was left to fly wherever I wanted, I was left to choose whatever I wanted- from my dresses to schools to jobs to career to what not!

After spending more than four years swinging like a wild monkey from tree to tree, I came to the conclusion that my life needed some handling and thus the major tantrums and fights- to go back to college, a new place, to more freedom and independence! Only now I realise all those hurtful words that I uttered to my parents, all those wild fights & arguments that I got into was all against myself and my parents were supposed to be but mere spectators and definitely not the fighting boards!

I could not resist writing back a big mail to my parents (leaving my exam marks to follow right at the end of the letter of course! ;) ) When I read back the whole letter written while on an emotional high, I was so surprised to find that I sounded so much like a big woman than their small shy daughter. The kid is long gone or is so deeply buried inside the grown up Vaijayanthi , even I have difficulty seeing her at times! Wonder whether my parents miss their sweet second child?

Monday, August 11, 2003

I miss him

One of the most regular visitors to my site is missing and I miss him!! I wonder where Mr. Crawl is.......................?

Here we go around the Mulberry Bush

I recently purchased a cassette of nursery rhymes for my neice. After an hour of continously listening to it, I suddenly realised that I do not know any rhyme fully- either that or the rhymes have changed drastically from 18 years ago! Whew.....

I have decided my favorite is going to be "Here we go around the Mulberry Bush......."

Sunday, August 10, 2003

Run in the Rain

A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in a Shopping Complex. She must have been 6 years old, with beautiful face, an image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth that it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood just inside the door of the Complex. People waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day.

One man who is always mesmerized by rainfall, got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child come pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of his day. The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in "Mom, let's run through the rain," she said. "What?" Mom asked. "Let 's run through the rain!" She repeated. "No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied. This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain," "We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said. "No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said as she tugged at her Mom's arm. "This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?" "Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"

The entire crowd stopped dead silent. Nothing could be heard, swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. All stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life.

A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith."Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well may be we just needed washing,” Mom said. Then off they ran. All stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their hopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars. And yes, the man also did. He ran. He got wet. He needed washing.

Circumstances or people can take away material possessions, they can take away money, and they can take away our health. But no one can ever take away our precious memories. So, don't forget to make time and take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose underheaven.

source: email

Saturday, August 9, 2003

My first booze party in Bangalore

The seniors have finally decided on a date to host the welcome party for us- it will be on Aug 14- a free booze and dance party!!! The guys cant wait and the girls are going mad too!!! Whew whats going to happen?

This will be my first booze party in Bangalore- looking forward to it!!!!

Wednesday, August 6, 2003

You're a visionary in many people's eyes :P

"You're a visionary in many people's eyes — able to think outside of the box to come up with your own solutions. You're creative not necessarily in the artistic sense, but because you can expand your mind to do things differently from others. It might take a while for colleagues to recognize and reward for your entrepreneurial spirit and abilities. That could be because they envy you, or because they find your ideas slightly rebellious — willing to go against the current. All in all, you make it hard for people to pigeon hole you. That is why you, more than others, need a job that allows you to play to your strengths, break out of the mold, and truly excel."

This is what emode had to say about me- What wonderful writers they have with them- and a good marketing team too..........

I am heavily fully mentally pregnant

I feel like sitting down and crying. Want to cry so much that it hurts to supress the emotions inside my mind- I dont have a private place to do what I want to do the most in this world!!!

Can't fathom why I have become so in the past few months - the tears are never too far away. I just have to think about something I feel strongly about and they are ready to pour!

God! My hormones are playing a havoc on me- the only explanation I can come up with for this kind of behaviour is that "I am heavily fully mentally pregnant!"

After thought: Dont ask me the delivery date or for that matter what I am carrying- but it is sure to come out screaming one fine morning!

An assignment in my Marketing course

Got to develop a new product and market it- an assignment in my Marketing course. During the brain storming session, we came up with this really innovative product- Dream Catcher- this would be a chip that can be worn by a person while sleeping to capture the brain signals generated during a dream and later intepreted using an EEG scanner. Thought we had dreamt up this idea- on researching for this I found that people have already tested this!!!!!!

A story by a friend

Hey here is the link to the wonderful story written by Hema Sarathy- Dont forget to leave your comments!!

Tuesday, August 5, 2003

Kudos to Hema Sarathy

Some people are so wonderfully creative- I never realised that I was surrounded by people with such great potential. Its so true what they say- "you never realise the goodness of things till you miss them" and believe me there is no limit to what you can miss in this world.

I just read a story written by Hema Sarathy, the sister of my best friend Lakshmi Sarathy and also a friend - I dont really know why but this sweet kid always had the ability to make me shed a few tears..................If only God can create more people like her for this earth......

Sunday, August 3, 2003

Happy Friendship Day

The day is promising to be really nice- we are all planning to go to MG Road and have fun!! And this will be my first time out with all my Bangalore friends as a group!! I also got a beautiful greeting card and a friendship band from my friends- Divya, Vijay and Bhaskar- Makes me feel so nice and not miss all that I would have done if I had been in Chennai. We had so fun last year and all the years in College! I was so lucky to have found people who think like me in undergraduate college and well......I will always miss those days! I guess all of them would have got together and will be having fun in the beach if I know them!!

Happy Friendship Day to you guys!!! Friends make everything special in life dont they? : > )

Friday, August 1, 2003

One never grows up at heart!!

My presentation on vector and parallel processor went really well........the prof was very happy with our group and the amount of research we had done and told us all that it was very good!! Reminds of those days in school when I used to immediately look into my classwork notebooks as soon as I get it back from correction for a "Good or Neat" comment by the teacher!!

One never grows up at heart!!